So this is basically about the fact that I sent Zach an email a couple of days ago, and I refuse to reply to, or even read, whatever he sent back. I was checking my yahoo account on my phone yesterday morning, and I knew there would be a message from him there, so I covered up the screen so I could only see the farthest left side. I scrolled down until I saw a "z", and then I closed the window.
I basically said to him that I'm sorry [again] and that I hope we can be some kind of friends in the far future when this is actually behind me, because it obviously isn't. I also added that I think it would be best if he and I stayed as far away from each other as possible, because I'm not emotionally strong enough to be around him.
I'm just amazed that the bastard replied to me. Why would he even waste his time saying anything to me? What the fuck is his motive? Anyway, I know that whatever he said would just throw me back into a spiraling depression, so I've decided that I'm not going to read whatever he said. It's not even worth it anymore. If I keep trying to talk to him and if he for some reason keeps saying horrible things to me to make me feel like shit, I'm just going to be stuck on him, and I don't want that anymore. I need to learn to be myself again instead of half of that relationship. It's just been really difficult for the past 3 months or so for me to realize that.
Anyway, about the poem, I wrote this this morning when I was awakened by a thunderstorm. Exciting, I know. But yeah this kind of builds off of the idea of rebirth and change for the better and all that good shit.
I also looked up the word "ply" [as in the end of "reply"] and it means a variety of interesting things. Bend, fold, or flex are some of the typical verb meanings, but it can also be like... to work diligently at something, to regularly travel something/somewhere, to use all the time, or to like... persist to get something. idk. so yeah, that adds some extra fun to the poem.
holy crap this is a lot of explaining for a 5-stanza poem. xD ENJOYYYY.