Gift HorsesGift Horsesblank/free9-26-119 stanzasknees beaten to the floori called out in desperation"i can't do this on my own"and so i was sent a saviori am burdened by a privilegeand i wonder if i should runwhile this alien hand claspsmy unsure, trembling consciencedeep behind my withheld truthsmy dependence rests with the other:the red bird: the Cardinal Kingone i'd also took for grantedkindness beckons from new skiesbut i'm a billion miles from therefloating in space, i'm screamingcaught between two planetspossibility of retry damns mesets my temples aflame nowas my obsessive head machinepicks at the details of my sufferingi am handed gift-wrapped solacetime and time and Time againi regress and wish for familiarnow that i'm freed of my chainsi had complained to the worldsaid i'd been burned by miserytold everyone how i wanted to fleeand now i beg for a hero's welcome?unappreciative, i sob inside this sorrowknowing how i can't be satisfiedthe hole in my
IdealismIdealismblank/free9-25-119 stanzashe'll have to love my poetryand read it like i love to write ithis eyes aglow with determinationand brain's wires sparking miracleshe'll have to own those eyesthat dip into a universe of intelligenceand dreams and insight and wisdomeyes that could captivate me foreverhe'll have to bear a touch so fierythat its intimidation will excite my soulwith solace to sedate my warring thoughtsand force that will awaken my secret demonshe'll have to understand my boutsof awakened memory as i tell him allabout how it used to be and how it's changedand of the many characters i met on my journeyshe'll have to watch as i wield micewith wire tails to make my masterpiecesand he'll be baffled by the love i willingly injectdeep into pixels that illustrate my entire young lifehe'll have to safely coax down my wallsso we could intertwine without any regretsand so we could effortlessly bare with open heartsthe dark and hidden corners of our
Good MorningGood Morningblank/free9-22-117 stanzaswoke up feeling sicki know a new mouth to kisswon't save me from myselfwoke up puffy-eyedbecause the only sedativeare tears squeezed out by fearwoke up so discouragedi'm not sure what i'm doingspreading myself across the earthwoke up wracked with shamemy head spinning as consciousnessclimbs out of its nightly hammockwoke up with movie reelsshowing me how i've already failedin my grotesque attempts to movewoke up disgusted with memy leaping into this new pitis going to leave me with scrapeswoke up feather-stomachedI'M SO SCARED. I'M SO SCARED.fear shackles me to what is familiar
A Cleaner SlateA Cleaner Slateblank/free9-20-113 stanzasthere's no one like you.let me be completely honest:you and i could have lastedfor eternity upon eternity.your mind is so beautiful.let me pick at its contents:you are so full of potential,but you know all too well.a cleaner slate beckons.let me show you how clean:every single minute aliveis the start of something new.
My ShadowMy Shadowblank/free9-20-119 stanzaslurker of dreams unrequitedyour silent footsteps were lostbeneath the roar of the battlefieldi fought hard to come this farso when you latch onto my armyou'd better carry your own weightprize of the lost but victoriousmy sleepless eyes had seen youbut the crowd covered your facei tore through boulders to climb hereand as i plant my mountain's flagi will allow no eyes to enslave meyoung deer of the twilight houri can tell your horns are new to youbut don't dare ask me to sharpen themi ripped fears from my spine's cavernsand i wore my mind down to bare wiresif you'd like to be mine, come forwardcalm water of the saltier tidesthis opportunity devours hesitationso act quickly, this fire's burning awayi leapt over volcanoes's mouthsto ease my way back to sea leveland i need enriching: i want healingso get up now and run with memy hopeful shadow: my constantout of heavy air, cleanse my tired lungs
I Want to Go HomeI Want to Go Homeblank/free9-20-118 stanzasall of those timesi said to a vacant bedroom"i want to go home"what i really meantall of those nights i criedwas "i want to turn back time"because i went backi saw that home was aliveand i saw the people i lovedthere weren't any spiralsor arrows pointing forwardall i could taste were goodbyesi went back homelike i asked for in my sleepbut my mentor wasn't thereit's as if i saw a picturefor just one fleeting minuteand i swore that it smiled at meyou left me here to face this!you left me alone!why?!i repeat to my dimpled ceiling"i want to go home"but that place is lost forever
LobotomyLobotomyblank/free9-14-114 stanzasshoved down into that holeback upturned like old leaveslike the ones i saw in timeswhen ancient freedom reignedmy spine is played out of tunelike xylophones been unhingedclouds fill my head up to the brimand now i'm carving out the draina few more nights alone will iceand clean my forehead for the drilli'll siphon out the heaviness you leftand pour free molten shackle's metalthere will be new calm: new lifeand you can dissolve into memoryi will continue on however i pleasethe unsatisfiable will have no say