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Good MorningGood Morning
woke up feeling sick
i know a new mouth to kiss
won't save me from myself
woke up puffy-eyed
because the only sedative
are tears squeezed out by fear
woke up so discouraged
i'm not sure what i'm doing
spreading myself across the earth
woke up wracked with shame
my head spinning as consciousness
climbs out of its nightly hammock
woke up with movie reels
showing me how i've already failed
in my grotesque attempts to move
woke up disgusted with me
my leaping into this new pit
is going to leave me with scrapes
woke up feather-stomached
I'M SO SCARED. I'M SO SCARED.
fear shackles me to what is familiar
A Cleaner SlateA Cleaner Slate
there's no one like you.
let me be completely honest:
you and i could have lasted
for eternity upon eternity.
your mind is so beautiful.
let me pick at its contents:
you are so full of potential,
but you know all too well.
a cleaner slate beckons.
let me show you how clean:
every single minute alive
is the start of something new.
My ShadowMy Shadow
lurker of dreams unrequited
your silent footsteps were lost
beneath the roar of the battlefield
i fought hard to come this far
so when you latch onto my arm
you'd better carry your own weight
prize of the lost but victorious
my sleepless eyes had seen you
but the crowd covered your face
i tore through boulders to climb here
and as i plant my mountain's flag
i will allow no eyes to enslave me
young deer of the twilight hour
i can tell your horns are new to you
but don't dare ask me to sharpen them
i ripped fears from my spine's caverns
and i wore my mind down to bare wires
if you'd like to be mine, come forward
calm water of the saltier tides
this opportunity devours hesitation
so act quickly, this fire's burning away
i leapt over volcanoes's mouths
to ease my way back to sea level
and i need enriching: i want healing
so get up now and run with me
my hopeful shadow: my constant
out of heavy air, cleanse my tired lungs
I Want to Go HomeI Want to Go Home
all of those times
i said to a vacant bedroom
"i want to go home"
what i really meant
all of those nights i cried
was "i want to turn back time"
because i went back
i saw that home was alive
and i saw the people i loved
there weren't any spirals
or arrows pointing forward
all i could taste were goodbyes
i went back home
like i asked for in my sleep
but my mentor wasn't there
it's as if i saw a picture
for just one fleeting minute
and i swore that it smiled at me
you left me here to face this!
you left me alone!
i repeat to my dimpled ceiling
"i want to go home"
but that place is lost forever
shoved down into that hole
back upturned like old leaves
like the ones i saw in times
when ancient freedom reigned
my spine is played out of tune
like xylophones been unhinged
clouds fill my head up to the brim
and now i'm carving out the drain
a few more nights alone will ice
and clean my forehead for the drill
i'll siphon out the heaviness you left
and pour free molten shackle's metal
there will be new calm: new life
and you can dissolve into memory
i will continue on however i please
the unsatisfiable will have no say
i'm pushed between cracks
drowning deep within sidewalks
where people like to crush me
IT'S HAPPENING AGAIN.
MY BRAIN CLAWS OUT OF MY HEAD.
la, la no one cares
give me a gun to end my ego
send my ashes up in the Minnesota wind
IT WON'T FUCKING STOP.
LEAVE ME ALONE. LEAVE ME ALONE.
come back, teacher
come back, wielder of salvation
return to me and to my constant decaying
TORMENT AND LAUGHTER
LURKS BEHIND EVERY SINGLE WALL.
no one's here to save me
and no one's here to kill me
i am a cloud in a sky of planes
I AM BURNING. I AM FREEZING.
I DON'T WALK ON THE PLANET IN MY HEAD.
maybe i should stop eating again
maybe this isn't as bad as i want it to be
maybe i'm just craving my own complete demise
THERE WAS SO MUCH MORE
THAT WE WERE READY TO DO.
AND NO ONE WILL BE CRUSHED BY MY FALL.
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